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I've felt this before. I've tasted the bittersweet flavor Of this sadness that consumes me Yet I still don't know how to break myself From it. Darkness lies with me In this empty bed and tears That once were not welcome Roll from these blind eyes. My body feels as thin as paper And I listen For the sound of my insides being shred By these rancid thoughts. Is God so unfair that He gives love to all as a gift From his own heart And takes it all back just as soon as We are able to embrace it? The thought kicks into my mind And I remember holding the knife To the sky. Words did not have to be uttered For the blade said i

Am I ever really here? It's been so long and I can still accept the fact That I will never trust myself But it's a shame that I let it all fall apart I let it all crumble In the palms of my hands Let it be Let it go But keep it on the inside as a reminder Don't shake it, don't break it Just let it flow from your fingertips Just let it be Just let me go Swallow it down Feel me sink into your stomach They're all choking now Watch them smother Watch them suffocate and Bring on your own desire For death They all hurt you in the beginning Never crying for you Never again Just let them go...

A dream of sorrow With fading laughter And a mental breakdown Following soon after Acknowledging the fact That all of this is real And a cry escapes from my lips When I realize that I don't want to feel Chained and alone Broken and used In a life filled with nothing But a powerful hope to lose This sense of depression That rips into my mind And as I strive for forgiveness I'll be wishing to find A cure for this disease And a reason for this disorder Then, while living in a world of intoxication My attention span will grow shorter But I'll always remember The way I looked at you And I'll only want you to remember That I

We're too drunk to listen But too sober to care About the shame that we bring And the pain that we share. We'll shatter the glass, Slit the years away, Then cheat through the obstacles That life throws our way. We feast on your pity We thrive on your hate Is this our beginning Or could it be our fate? Oblivious of compassion, We'll kick you to your knees Then rape any chance of survival Until you can hardly whisper, "Please.." We are all condemned, All damned to a life of fleeing Inside we are all monsters, But we call ourselves human beings.

Kiss your death upon the lips, Feel the tingle in your fingertips While you embrace the feeling of the pill Sliding steadily down your throat And listen to your inner demons As they begin to gloat About how they turned you inside out You're walking backwards and now it's All about the drugs, the fame, the popularity, The pain, and how you went through it all In vain. Now I'll sit back and watch you dive Into your ocean of sins and lies And I'll only laugh as you reach to me; While you begin to suffocate you'll finally see How your innocence was torn apart, How you were corrupted, and how You broke my heart.

She looks to the window And cries with the rain Along with the pounding thunder That resembles her pain. She flies out of the door With her arms to the sky Screaming to God, She asks him,"Why?!" Why her heart aches, Why she still cares, And she kicks at the rocks Then screams that life is unfair. She falls to her knees And her tears fall to the gound They are absorbed with the rain And now all she can hear is this sound. The sound of the wind Whispering in her ear, "I shall embrace you And do away with your pain and your fear."

Here I am Submerging in these silent tears That I have only released for you. Here I am Caught up in my own pitiful sorrow While I lay cold and alone. There you are Acting as if you are sorry For what you have dragged me through. There you are Convincing me once more that you are true With your deceiving embrace. Here I am Filled with adoration for you Only to be fooled once more. Here I am Banging on the walls of my own mind For ever believing you again. There you are Turning your back as I reach for you, While begging for you to fool me again and again. There you are Walking reluctantly out of my life As I sob weakl

Am I ready for this again? I feel so broken, but also alive. I'm so caught up into this relationship. How do we do this? Do you love me? Do you trust me? You respond by telling me that you could never love another human being the way you love me. Yes, I love you, but I cannot help but feel that there is this sign of broken trust between you and I. I have confronted you about this feeling and I am so terribly sorry for it, but what more can I do? Trust me, I do want to trust you. If I could break from this feeling, I would, but I am still recovering from these past few weeks. I don't want to cry anymore. You look into my eyes and whisper th

We sit, we stare Into each other's soul, Once again. I laugh, you cry In each other's arms, Once again. We love, we're lost In this beautiful moment, Once again. We care, we embrace, And lock ourselves into Each other's hearts, Forever more.